Hope

Hope was strangled and love clubbed. I'm just going to not make it. I want the impossible. I prayed to God that he could take ten years off of my life if I had the smallest chances to change things. Carful what you pray. I now have a heart condition that I take toperol for. I've never been without my cubs for Christmas. I've never felt so hopless and alone. I keep having diologes with my self and that makes me feel crazy to. Is this communication, is it journaling. Is it begging the universe. I feel like a man with broken legs that knows he has to get to the top of a mountain. I've been clawing my way but I have five miles of hard brush ahead of me. It would be so easy to lay down. Just lay down and stop, stop trying.